Breakfast in Bed; Not a Mother yet at 30 something.

theveganoutkastI want to jump to those crazy ideas that sometimes form in my head with no second thought, just of course a good solid plan that I came up with in a minute, and wish it to the stars that I hope it works. I want to cry and feel hopeless then get right back on. I want to keep building my person, who I am, keep experiencing everything I can so that I can tell these stories to my kids, so that I can paint nice pictures in their head, and hopefully lend a helping wise mind to whatever comes to arise, because I’ve been there. I did that too and then I became your role model, that solid person you can look up to and admire for so many things, Your Mother.

π‘³π’Šπ’—π’† π’π’π’π’ˆ, π’π’Šπ’—π’† π’‹π’π’šπ’‡π’–π’, π’π’Šπ’—π’† 𝒀𝒐𝒖. ✨People ask me why I am not a Mother yet and if I want to ever have children. Being a Mother is wonderful. I’ve seen it first hand and I can imagine.

For me, I am just not ready to change my identity. Once a Mother π’‚π’π’˜π’‚π’šπ’” a Mother. I know I will be one, a beautiful, fascinating and thoughtful experience. I want it. Just not right now. 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 π’šπ’π’– 𝒂𝒓𝒆 π’ˆπ’†π’•π’•π’Šπ’π’ˆ 𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓? 𝒀𝒐𝒖 π’Œπ’π’π’˜, π’Šπ’•β€™π’” 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒅 π’…π’‚π’π’ˆπ’†π’“π’π’–π’” 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 π’Œπ’Šπ’…π’” 𝒐𝒍𝒅𝒆𝒓, π’π’π’˜ π’Šπ’” π’šπ’π’–π’“ π’•π’Šπ’Žπ’†. I know that when the time comes and my heart, mind and body are ready, it will happen. I just have no doubt, I feel it in my bones.

I want to keep being Me, and although some say it may be selfish, we are only alive for a certain amount of time and have only one life to do, create, and experience everything we want. There is no timeline but our own. I want to continue to get to know myself. When you have children, they will always be an extension of you, you become one. I want to keep learning and experiencing my solo mind and heart. When you have children, they become your heart, your mind and your π’†π’π’•π’Šπ’“π’† soul. I want to keep pushing myself in different directions and even fall to the deepest ends sometimes, with no remorse. I want to spend my money on stupid things, keep meeting people from all walks of the world and have those regretful experiences, take the lessons and live life on the wild side. I want to jump to those crazy ideas that sometimes form in my head with no second thought, just of course a good solid plan that I came up with in a minute, and wish it to the stars that I hope it works. I want to cry and feel hopeless then get right back on. I want to keep building my person, who I am, keep experiencing everything I can so that I can tell these stories to my kids, so that I can paint nice pictures in their head, and hopefully lend a helping wise mind to whatever comes to arise, because I’ve been there. I did that too and then I became your role model, that solid person you can look up to and admire for so many things, Your Mother.

π‘³π’Šπ’—π’† π’π’π’π’ˆ, π’π’Šπ’—π’† π’‹π’π’šπ’‡π’–π’, π’π’Šπ’—π’† 𝒀𝒐𝒖.

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